Thread:Rora Raro/@comment-35000429-20190116025435/@comment-27123436-20190117015845

That's what I've been trying to do for well over a year, in fact, and I can't seem to find anything that I can hold dear or as valuable anymore, besides my ability to make OP things and use some degree of reasoning to talk about things (which are few since I get really confused by what is being said here most of the time, what I like is... uh, well, as apparent with that DBS talk, Lobotomy Corp, etc. there isn't much of it, and this place has too much memories of me to just let go and there is no, uhm... not really any other place for me to go besides Amino which is almost a barren wasteland now and Discord servers which... don't really need me to be honest).

I lost nearly everything of what made me be myself, including my compassion and kindness. I don't really care about the state of my being ever since the whole incident happened, nor do I really care about my family to be honest. The few friends I have are online (fewer and fewer as time goes by), since school has changing grades per year, making me lose a lot of friends each time, and I am not as approachable as I was a year ago, I've became pretty anti-social due to the whole incident, so I haven't really made any friends this year. I am just ironically existing now, without a real purpose in life (I wanted to be a doctor to help as much people as I could).

I sometimes wish things could be the way they were before, and I've tried to, but I can't seem to be able to. I've become such a bad person and think about things that are anything but ok and cannot evade them. Do you really want to have something like that in here? I don't think anyone would be bothered by my absence.